Good News for Remus

"You don't have to keep this pup...it may cost you more trouble with Finrir." She frowned seeing the paper shadow layed on the coffee table. Everything and everyone seemed to be falling apart. She needed Albus to help her through this. But he was away...looking for the horcrux's and she had no idea where. Then there was Hunter...he had stolen her heart...yet she wasn't sure if she could trust him yet. She needed a drink and now. She followed Shadow into the kitchen, pouring herself a glass of whiskey. They looked more or less like someone died.

She then laughed..."We are truly a mess", she then swigged the whiskey.

Shadow chulked "aye..that we are...pandora that we are."
she placed one hand on her belly.
"no i want to keep the pup pandora"

"Okay I'll support your decission then. What are friends for, if not there when one is in need", she said patting Shadows shoulder lightly. She poured another glass of whiskey and then looked to Shadow.

"Can i ask you something? If you found your soul mate would you let anything come between that?"

Shadow smiled "aye thats true thanks pandora"

"I have..but he doesnt see me,,,,and no i wouldnt let naything come between that pandora why do you ask?"

"Well it's the love of my dearest friend..or the man who stole my heart and keeps it captive. I'm so torn. I'm a loyal creature. I feel guilty. But I love another...with a fiercness I cannot explain. It was a mutual love at first sight..like we had been waiting for one another...and finally we found each other. I have never been so torn. My heart aches to do what is right", she said wipping a tear from her cheek. "And then my heart wants what it wants. What it longs for. I'm a mess and so scared of hurting my best friend. Who will end up hating me. I just want to run away."

Remus stood in the kitchen door way looking at the two of them drinking ".. if you are going to keep the child Shadow.. you need to stop drinking.. and Pandora.. " he said looking at her now ".. you told me drinking isn't a cure... isn't going to sort anything out, so I suggest you stop before putting yourself in a early grave... and you need to do what you think is best.. no point in waiting.. I did, then it was too late, so it's your choice"

She looked to the door horrified that Remus had over heard her talking. Her head dropped as pain seared her heart. "Right now a early grave would be welcome", she mumbled.


She tried to compose herself as she looked to Remus. "Do you feel any better?"

".. well drinking isn't going to help your head.. just make it worse in the morning.." he said limping over to the bottle and taking it, pouring the rest down the sink "I am sober and I know what I was saying out in the garden... even if I did have a bit too much.. but yes..I feel more well but the same.."

"go with what your heart tells you Pandora i follow my heart and well lets say my heart is now lost to someone"
She looked at remus as he came in "i havent had any accutal remus i was thinking on it but pandora started the bottle i dont intend on finsihing it"

She watched him take the bottle and pore the rest away.

Remus took a seat at the table to rest his legs ".. well good... but I wasn't to know.." he rested his hand in his hand with the elbow on the table and looked over to the window watching the snow falling

"I wasn't done yet. Did you ever think, that just maybe my job is stressfull and sometimes I feel like I'm going to lose my sanity. It's not a easy job looking after you lot and all the students too. i'm tired and stressed out. I haven't slept in two days now. I needed some kind of release..be it alcohol or running away. Which neither suits anyone. I just want some rest..sorry", she said sighing and laying her head down on her arms.

"I'm not so strong all the time", she mumbled. "It's just that everyone needs me to be."

"I didn't ask for your help that night Pandora.. nor for you to back me up...and I told Shadow to go to a hospital.. if she didn't want it.. to give you less to deal with.." he said looking over to her ".. I will make some hot chocolate.." he said pushing himself up from the chair before hobbling to the stove to warm some milk up.

"I could never turn my back on you. I would have traded myself for your life. That is not what i'm talking about. I don't mind having your back...I'm just tired..thats all."

She sighed feeling misunderstood and horribly over worked.


"Hot chocolate sounds good...help us rest when we finally get the chance."

SHadow sighed "mabye i should just let you two be alone"
She pushed her self up and winced hissing slightly her hips ached all she wanted was her cozy dark dungoen and to spell.

".. you can always sleep in one of the bedrooms up stairs Shadow.." he suggested before coming back with the mugs. He sat himself down and then pushed Pandora's mug towards her before speaking ".. I am sorry for causing this stress.."

"I'm just going to stay here tonight..I don't have the streangth to go home. Yes stay also Shadow...your weak and should rest before going out. Besides it's not safe for you."

"Remus I'm sorry too...if anything happened to you I couldn't live with myself. I do love you."

Remus looked down not knowing what Pandora meant anymore, if she meant the love as in, the family, friends sort or the love how he felt towards her. He just gave a faint nod and sipped his coco ".. and I would you.."

Shadow smiled "i have a cottage not far from hogwarts i can apperate to if i dont splice my self ill rest there then go to hogwarts."
she smiled not mentioning the cottage was in the forest./

She found it hard to stand for long as her hips hurt.

She sipped her hot chocolate quietly..her mind racing. There seemed to be no clear answers to anything anymore. How fast her life had gotten difficult. And worst of all, it had only begun.


"I saved your life..yet I still feel like I have failed you. Maybe i'm just tired..to tired to think anymore."

"I disagree Shadow..but I cannot stop you."

"... how can you fail me? you did what to did, you did what was best.. but .. you can't control your feelings..." he said looking down into his hot chocolate, rubbing his brow "I only failed myself.. "

She wipped a tear from her eye before it fell. "I hurt you...all the same." I..I had no idea..I really didn't."

"I just want you to be alright and always be my dearest friend in the world. I adore you...your like my only family. I have no one. I can't lose you too."

She pushed her chair out and quickly walked to the living room, falling in a chair and cupping her hands over her face. She would have to sleep soon. She was getting to emotional..usually she was good at holding in everything. Even the pain.

Shadow smiled and huggd pandora "ill be fine ill send a patronous if im not okay"
she smiled softly "Bye pandora....Good bye Remus"
she blushed lightly beofre placing her cloakc on and walking out side slowly

Remus gripped the mug tightly as Pandora spoke "I want more than a friend or family... I have none as you know ".. that's because I was too shy.. now I am too late." He rubbed his brow as it started to throb again, Remus felt the same as Pandora, but with more anger inside of him. He watched he get up and leave the room. He let her go seeing as there was nothing he could say or do. He then gave Shadow a weak wave as she left.

"I can't give more right now", she cried softly. "I'm sorry.."

She told Shadow goodbye and headed up the stairs to a empty room where she fell onto the bed. She curled up and wept softly...she hated hurting anyone...especially Remus.

And where had Hunter got off to. She wouldn't let herself think of him betraying her now..not now, after everything. She felt alone and lost.

Remus looked down at his hands as Pandora went up the stairs. He didn't know what to do he wanted to go and comfort her, but he felt it wasn't his place, or it might make things worse.

He thought it over for several minutes before pushing himself up and making his way up.

He tapped on the door lightly and waited for an answer from Pandora. ".. can I come in?"